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toxicity & addiction

Saturday, August 25, 2007

Ok. Im in for the job already. Starting work sooner than I even thought. Will be working on Monday next week. Haha. I hope everything turns out well. I mean to tell the truth I do not really like the job hopping lifestyle that I currently adopt now, but I just can't help having such low tolerance. It turns out to me that it isn't easy to stay on for long in a job. I guess I can never expect work conditions to be so perfectly carved out for me. The ups and downs in work tends to be inevitable. Likewise in life.

I do not know how to put it in words, but I just felt somewhat bad today and I wanted to vent it out. There is this grudge in me for a particular person which I just can't understand why. As in for now, I am in some deep thoughts of why a person who used to treat you so good can turned out to be another now.
I am starting to realise that it is soon getting hard for me to trust. In fact, I am most afraid to trust now. Afraid to trust people around me. My colleagues especially and people that I just get to know. It is true that there are many hypocritical people around, out in the society. Not all are worth our trust. The world and people are just too much of an enigma for me to comprehend that I might soon turn into a recluse someday when I can't even trust my own family. Sigh. Why can't we just think simple and live happily.

Anyhow, I need to drop and forget all the unhappiness. And think of how I can make myself feel better. Like going for a movie with my friends. Indulge myself in my favourite horror movies.

|2:07 AM

Friday, August 17, 2007

Well, for the time being I guess I'll have to pinch pennies just to get by. Lol. I'll abstain myself from going out unneccesarily for these few weeks. As the best way to avoid spenting is total abstinence from hanging out. If not I'll be happily squander a whole year's savings on 3 weeks in the sun. Lol.

Had a quarrel with mum and I'm still feeling bad about it. I shouldn't be saying those things to her but I just can't help it. Sigh. I've been thinking alot lately which I don't used to be doing so. I kept feeling that my life has been inextricably linked with boredom and unhappiness these days which resulted me in making derogatory comments and remarks on everyone around me. Probably because Im jobless now or am I just too self-centered to accept others? Why must I make everyone around me sounds so detestable? Well, the fact is, everyone make mistakes and nobody is perfect, neither am I perfect.

Did these quizzes, you might wanna try.

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|3:38 AM

Wednesday, August 15, 2007

Sigh. I guess I needed a change.

Anyhow, I shall take these few days to relax. Been working for quite some time and I really felt that it's getting bored as days goes by. I need to get away from the working life for a while and take a breathe for now.

And so today while slacking at home. Bored and feeling the emptiness of my life, I suddenly have the ravenous appetites for chocolates, candies and ice creams. Thus I figured that I should make a trip to the supermarket. They costed me more than I thought. Lol. And these are the things that I splurged on. Apparently, it's alot. ='(

A Heap of candies and chocolates.

Candies from Meiji. I like the packaging.

My all time favourite strawberry fruit jelly candy.

Take a break, Take a Kit Kat. Lol.

Jelly bean candy. Lol. I've got sweet tooth.
STRAWBERRY ROCKS MY WORLD!!
Triple Kit Kat = Triple times breaks ?
Chocolate!!
Hacks!!
Halls!!
Cabury Chocolate that I've already indulged myself in.
Chocolate Biscuit.
Seaweed. A Must!
Dove Chocolate.
2 tubs of Ice creams.
Strawberry Milk. Yesh, Im head over heel in love with STRAWBERRIES!!!And lastly, Gui Lin Gao. No preservatives. Lol.

Well, there are actually some more, which were already eaten by mummy, sister and me. Lol. Didn't get a chance to snapshot them all. Lol. I can practically buy every candies and chocolates in the entire shop if there is no limitation to my budget. Unfortunately there is. Lol. I've to curb my cravings for more. Lol.

|8:28 PM

Saturday, July 21, 2007

Yesh, the ugly girl above is me. Wanying has finally uploaded the Kbox session on my birthday. Arghh. After looking at the picture, I start to realise that my
obesity problem is really getting out of hand. I seriously needs a liposuction on various areas on my body. And obviously, my face needed lipo the most. I figured that I needed a plastic surgery too. My features are disgusting. I know definitely there will be people out there who will be asking. Hey why can't you just have a little esteem in yourself? Im a low esteem freak, self conscious and have totally no confident at all. Unless I look like this one day. Below:

Then maybe I'll gain some confiident in myself. Lol. The day will never come. *Sigh. She's a real beauty. My fairy girl. Gosh. Im drooling already. She's so perfect with beauty and brain.

|10:32 AM

Sunday, July 15, 2007

Been slogging my ass off lately. Had a tremendous change in my attitude towards my work. Used to lead a life living off my dad but now I gotta learnt to earn my own living. Sigh. Sad isn't it? Have got so many things in mind to buy which are way over my budget. Need to curb my urge a little. Lol. My life has been revolving around my small little constrained desk, office stuff and colleagues these days. Pictures below:

This is my desk with a stupid old computer, i've already requested for a LCD monitor com instead of this. Boss acknowledged my problem and told me that if i wanted a change, it would be a laptop and if i change, everyone esle has to change as well. Hence I quitted having that idea and told him that it's ok. Lol.

This is my what I see everyday. Almost half the day Im at it. Sigh.

This is how I look everyday at work in the morning, working with an empty stomach and being late.

In the afternoon, famished. Awaiting for my lunch time.

Awww.....I need FOOODDD!!!! Im dying.

Yay!! Finally My long awaited Lunch time!!! Woo!!

I got to go. Hee. Happy me. Im gonna eat mixed rice again!! Lol.

Went Eski Bar with my clique on 15 July to celebrate ting's birthday. We ordered 2 jug which costed us $117.00. I personally do not feel that its worth that money to drink. Vodka with cranberries and Chelvas with green tea. The drinks were good tho. Lol. Honestly, the gathering was pretty lame. Everywhere is filled with people. Wanted to eat at Indonesian restaurant but the place was flooded with people. Ended up eating at food court.

The menu.

|8:50 PM

Thursday, July 05, 2007

Went to holland yesterday night right after work. Met up with Celyn. Had my dinner with her at coffee club. As she had just moved to Holland. Had a look at her place, and I was darn impressed with everything I saw. The design and furnitures of her house were fantastic. I mean you have got to see it for yourself to believe it. It could truely be a home sweet home for me if the house belongs to me. Which I can just dream on, I know. Lol. Well, I must say holland is just too great a place to be. It's definitely a place which could save you time thinking of where to go everyday or say during your bore, free time when you have got nothing better to do. For ah bengs and ah lians, kopitiam nearby could be their great hang out but at holland, you can easily hang out at your favourite pubs anytime you want. And the variety of pubs and eating places you could hang out is just too much. Holland is just so my favourite. Lol. You can tell how badly I wanted an apartment in Holland. Lol.

As for today, headed down to amk hub straight after work and met up with wanying. We planned this beforehand last week. Went shopping for our clothes. And again I spent. Without even realising how poor I would have become. *sob. And indeed, Im a poor bloke now. *sigh. Well, what's new anyway. Lol. Was totally worn-out when I reached home.

PS: I want a PINK PSP so badly!!!!!! HELP anyone? =(

|12:06 AM

Wednesday, June 27, 2007

Been slogging hard everyday. Hardly do I have time for blogging. However, I do not want my blog to seem like a neglected one hence I'll try to post whenever I can. Was on the phone with wanying in the afternoon and was told of the Elisabeth Arden warehouse sales at Suntec but unfortunately I knew it too late. That only lasted for a day. Darn. I hate to miss out sales. Anyway, the GSS has already caused me to squander way beyond my limit which resulted in me, being in a financial hemorrhage now. Honestly, I really hate the idea of myself squandering my hard earned money away but temptation is always my biggest enemy. Im watching money comes and go. It's like now you see it, now you don't. Lol.

Anyhow, I've a piece of good news to announce. I've finally gotten a puppy. Lol. It may not be anything to you guys but it's definitely something to me. It's like after a day of work, I reached home in fatigue. Not anymore when I see Barney. Lol. And for your information my puppy was called Barney. It's a Shih-Tzu(Chrysanthemum Dog). Well, pictures speaks for itself. Look at how cute it is for yourself.